Adult Child Estrangement: Drugs And Rock

Conflict between mother and daughter
Your Adult Child likely doesn’t know what they feel but, you can’t tell them either way.

Not that this is the case for everyone who has an estranged adult child but, it happens to be a point with my own daughter’s estrangement.  She’s made it abundantly clear that she wants drugs and rock concerts though she’s nearly 36 years of age and should have been finished with this phase of her life.

No, she’s not part of a band.  She’s simply following a psychedelic drug user around who equally, has no qualifications to be part of any band except through his ears.  Sadly and pathetically, he’s 37 years of age and should be using his brains to work his way towards a better future for himself along with my daughter.  He’s not doing that and neither is she.  Both are only concerned with the next score of cheap concert tickets, psychedelic drugs and whatever levels of video games that he gets into or MMA fights that they can afford to pay for to see on Pay Per View.  They figure that they’ve scored if they can get those tickets, drugs and free views of MMA or UFC.  That’s their lives at these ages.

I use this as an example of how it is that our adult children can walk away from us when we, as parents, don’t want that as part of our lives.

Recently, I reached out to my only child, my daughter, who lives with this jerk-off who had been thrown out of his own parent’s home many years ago.  There are reasons that I’ve come to uncover that do not match up to his version of things and yet, he knows the difference or the truth behind it all.  It’s a story that he imagined and created to justify his actions while he still chases after his own family and begs our daughter to stay away from her own family and former friends.  While he has constant contact with his family and they frequent his family home which is fraught with issues and substance abuse, he doesn’t want our influence over our daughter lest she have her head swayed by any of us.  In short, our daughter has estranged herself from practically everyone now who came from her past because they don’t accept the drugs and concerts nor him.

The true shame of this is that she will only accept those in her life who accept a mentally ill, drug riddled, inheritance chaser who is resting on his laurels for that inheritance that may or may not ever come his way.  The shame comes in the fact that most people her age and beyond, have long since recognized that they cannot stomach this lifestyle she’s chosen to be part of nor, this jerk-off who lacks the mental ability to put censors on his tongue and declares himself to hate “liars”.  Thus, everyone has become a “liar” to him and her if they don’t agree and accept that type of thinking and lifestyle.

In recent weeks, I reached out to her once again.  I tried to appeal to whatever sense of love and want to be around us that she may still have in her.  It came on the heels of me having found out that I would need surgery and simply wanted the ability to speak to my daughter or my only child before I go for this surgery.  Within a 3 week time frame, my hopes were completely dashed when she responded with a scathing email (instead of a phone call) chalk full of false accusations, wording that anyone with half a brain could see came from being high as well as the mentally ill buffoon that she lives with and a disdain for us as her parents.  It tore me to shreds as both a person and a mother to her, something that I had asked her not to do if that was her intentions.  The biggest thing was that she once again, demanded that we accept her drug usage, lack of growth in life and the jerk-off she lives with as well.  We’ve tried and tried all of the above and it never worked out.  We couldn’t allow the drugs being done around us and the lack of censorship that this creep showed not only us but, other family members (to the point of insulting them all, one by one) was not feasible.  Not only that but, she knows in her heart of hearts that it’s not right nor, is he.  I give up.  There’s no hope in her ever coming back nor, being the daughter or have the personality of the child that I’d raised.

Lest anyone reading this, think that I’m being intolerant of her life or her, think again please.

  • We have accepted him with open arms into both our lives and home for years.
  • We bought both of them gifts, dinners out, made dinners and had him around family where he wouldn’t put on a set of filters as to what he said or did, including insulting every family member that we have left to the point of them refusing to be in his presence then telling us that our daughter was mentally ill and needed counselling for remaining with him and his distorted view of life.
  • Based upon what we now know through someone close to him, was lies from him or half-truths, we listened and tried to help him, feeling sorry for him.  Nothing would have made us happier than to have had someone we could call a “son”.  He wouldn’t allow it and proceeded to open his mouth where uncensored crap and lies were spewed out over and over again.  We fell for them until someone close to him spilled the reality behind him and his lies to both us and our daughter.
  • The saddest of it all was that he knew that drugs were not only off the table in being done in our home but, that there were 3 younger, impressionable children around while both he and she proceeded to pull it all out and try to do them here.  We had accepted that they did these things but, we simply didn’t want them done in our home or around us.  That’s the beginning of the end when we asked that they take it to their car or elsewhere out of respect for us and our house rules.  He knew how to end our entire relationship with our daughter by doing this.  It was his last straw to pull and pull it, he did with her following him and allowing it all.

Don’t get me wrong.  I know that my own daughter is not innocent or helpless.  Equally, I know that she’s going along with this mentally ill person’s way of life because we’ve watched her do this with 3 other former boyfriends as well.  She becomes a chameleon and turns herself inside out and into versions of each of them, taking on whatever habits, traits and likes that they possess or do.  This creep is the worst by far though out of them all as he has 24/7 access to her brain and she has none of her own it seems.

From my little corner of life to yours, the moment that you figure out that your adult child has fallen into this type of a pattern with someone you cannot stomach, start putting up boundaries which cannot be crossed by either of them.  If they insist upon following their own rules and not yours in your home, realize that you’re in a losing position right there and quit trying to please your adult child.

Realize a few things:

  1. If your boundaries are there and your adult child doesn’t respect them, they don’t respect you either.  It’s akin to a slap in your face to continue catering to your child.
  2. Have respect for yourself.  If you don’t have respect for yourself and continue backing your child’s demands, backing up your boundaries constantly out of fear or the hope that you’re going to keep your child around, you’ve lost right there.  Your child won’t respect you or your boundaries either.
  3. As I wrote in THIS PIECE your child is wanting something else more than they want you for their own reasons.  Stop catering to your child’s whines, cries, demands and commands.  They aren’t 5 years old anymore.  They’ve getting something from their situations or the people that they are with.  You cannot win that battle as it’s in their hands, not yours.
  4. No matter who your child once was, they are no longer that person now.  While some growth can be fully expected and wanted, a downwards step in life is not something any of aspire to see our child as part of.
  5. If your adult child is willing to cross your boundary lines, their respect for you as a parent has got up and left the house.  Don’t permit disrespect from them.  They are out to get what they want and not out to give a damn about you as their parent.

Have a read through my many other pieces that I’ve written about Adult Child Estrangement as well.  You may find something that helps you realize something that you hadn’t recognized before even if it differs from my personal experiences.  Thought inspires.

Love and Light,

Have a GREAT day or evening!

Published by ponderinglifetoo

I'm a wife, mother, artist, photographer and bookkeeper. I love writing out my thoughts in journals but, am finding my way to sharing these with others now.

4 thoughts on “Adult Child Estrangement: Drugs And Rock

    1. Hi Kathy…yes, my email address is always available. It’s

      If you are meaning that I share the emails that my daughter has sent to me on a public forum, no…sorry…that’s privately said and I will not share something from her publicly. Those were her words. I mean to keep it private.

      Thank you for asking though. I understand what you mean.

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  1. I just want to thank you for helping me to realize that I am not alone in this horrible situation. My story is a carbon copy of yours, although my daughter is only 23, and she has estranged herself from her entire family for the sake of a piece of garbage of almost 2 years now. The people (if you want to call them that) that she considers her family now are all drug addicts, ex-cons and prostitutes – the kind of people that she used to hate! And so now she is one of them. She has become a prostitute in order to keep the loser that she calls “her fiance” and continues to fund his drug and alcohol addiction, while he does nothing but play video games all day. I used to blame myself for possibly doing something wrong that could have made her this way, but all I did was give her too much. I, like you have said in the posts I have read from you, lived for her. She was my first thought in the morning, and my last thought when I closed my eyes each night. Even in my sleep, I dream about seeing her again, and most nights my dreams turn into nightmares about losing my little girl, only for me to wake up and realize this is real life now. She is not the same person that my husband and I raised, loved and cherished for so many years. She has broken me in so many ways, emotionally, mentally and physically. I literally felt my heart break the last time we spoke, like she ripped my heart right out of my chest. It was the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire lifetime, and now it is just a dull ache everyday, a constant reminder of this painful emptiness without her. But she is gone. I pray for you everyday and though I wish our stories could have a happy ending, for now it is comforting to know that I am not alone. Stay strong

    On Fri, Aug 10, 2018 at 3:06 PM, My Little Corner of Life wrote:

    > ponderinglifetoo posted: ” Not that this is the case for everyone who has > an estranged adult child but, it happens to be a point with my own > daughter’s estrangement. She’s made it abundantly clear that she wants > drugs and rock concerts though she’s nearly 36 years of age and sho” >

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    1. Oh Jorush123….I am wrapping my arms around you in a HUGE hug right now. I know only too well that pain and the suffering that you’re going through and why. I equally know the dreams that you’ve been having as I also have them.

      Sadly, it will take your daughter recognizing that she doesn’t love herself to be putting up with this type of a lifestyle for her to realize that she’s made a HUGE mistake and deserves better. You cannot do that for her. SHE must come to that realization on her own. I know how long a time that this feels and how hurtful this is but, trust me when I say that with all HOPE…she WILL see that she’s not got a “Dream Life” with him and eventually want to move forward. Give both her and yourself credit for having instilled the brains within her that while they appear to be temporarily lost in her, you have kept yours. Stand up for yourself (within yourself) and realize that this is purely about HER and her choices, not about you as a mother no matter WHAT she may proclaim. It’s all justification and nothing else while she attempts to convince herself that she’s “living a good life”.

      I am so sorry that she’s gone into prostitution in order to support herself and him as well as his lifestyle. Most women who get into that trade, are also into drugs and hooked on them so, they continue to feed their habit and need money to be able to do so. Unfortunately, they also have self-hatred whether we believe it or not. It’s an addiction that she’s feeding, not belittling you as a parent.

      That said…I do believe that eventually, she will recognize that she’s not living a life that propels her forward in the way that one would hope to see our children go towards. You cannot speed that process up no matter what you do. You have to “let go” and let her realize that she’s got to make changes. She knows (deep down inside) that she can reach out to you if she truly wants help to get out of it all in one way or another. She’s simply not ready to do so. One day though…something will trigger that thought, I’m sure. She’s YOUNG and doesn’t know herself yet. She will, one day.

      Hang tough and hang in there. Take care of self (easier said than done as I’ve said because I still struggle daily with this as well…you’re not alone!)

      HUGS, HUGS and more HUGS XO XO XO


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