I’m still recuperating from major surgery so, you’re going to have to excuse what and how I write for now. I’m tired and sore as well as scared when things aren’t exactly as I expected (though the medical professionals would likely tell me to “chill” and they’d be right on that one.).
I’m having a hard time with emotions lately. I’m all over the map. One moment I can laugh, the next, I’m crying and in between, I am either sleeping or taking someone’s head off. I can laugh at that one because my poor husband has been the brunt and witness to all of this. Perhaps, it’s part of pain or tiredness or both? Whatever it is, I’m “zero to bitch” in 30 seconds lately and that’s from a laughing state. Imagine what I’m like when I’m already riding my broom.
I’ve lost my energy and I mean that in more than one way. I tend to want a vacation from Social Media because I cannot handle the criticisms that come my way and make no sense to me as, (a) they haven’t read a word I’ve written, (b) they haven’t watched even a second of one of my videos and lastly, (c) their lives are not as rosy as they wish to paint them on these vehicles. I know that for a fact.
Lately, I’ve been working my rear end off to get up YouTube videos, only to find that viewers are not even watching them before hitting dislike. I know because analytics show those stats. Top that off with the fact that I’m not exactly a teen or tween and I’m like a salmon swimming upstream. I don’t get subscribers either and I have a theory that a lot of people of my age, simply don’t join YouTube because they don’t have to in order to watch videos on it.
Secondly, while I’ve had this blog for over 6 years now and written hundreds of entries, I get more views on something like a piece on Ralph Smart (Infinite Waters Diving Deep) from YouTube than I do from anything else that I’ve written about. It’s a shame because those pieces weren’t the ones that I wanted the traffic on and didn’t write them for that reason. I am no longer reading or posting comments regarding this person and those who read those pieces are finding what I will term as “sneaky ways” to make comments about him in a lewd, crude and even death threat way.
Would you believe that “Smartians” as I love to call them, will search the net for ways to comment about him and defend him? It’s not love that they use either. I’ve even had nasty comments on videos that have nothing to do with this YouTuber. They were comedy videos only. Yeah, that got them far. It got them to the trash-can for having found a back door where they weren’t invited. It also shows me how well their leader is doing in his teachings…if that’s what one wishes to call them. I can’t do that.
Then, we have Facebook where everyone loves to put up photos of their lives, making an every day occurrence for all of us, seem like it’s something special and they get along with everyone they know. Skipping Facebook seems like a good bet for me right now.
So, I’m going to try to take a bit of a rest from posting anything or working hard on anything unless it really strikes me to do so. I’m also taking a holiday from Facebook and the likes while I try to get some extra much needed rest and let my body heal as it should.
In the meanwhile, there’s plenty of posts on here and YouTube for those who wish to read or watch or even listen to. I’ll write whenever I can and post videos to YouTube when I don’t want to knock someone’s head off. That’s said with a chuckle at myself.
Have a great day or evening,
Love and Light!